Thanksgiving

OK, so it's Turkey day...mine is sitting in a tub of water right now. It was still a little frozen this morning, but seems OK now. I'll prep it and get it in the oven in a couple of hours. It's a small one, so should be good to go by this afternoon. Taking a break from trying to clean up my place. I get happy just thinking about Patty. When it comes to Christmas, Patty is getting the better end of the deal. I'm getting her the large size photo printer she wants, and an Ipod touch, and most of the Jane Austen movies she had on her wish list. A part of me sees me and Patty ending up together and being happy (at least on some level) together. We'll each have that other person out there who makes our collective hearts sing, but we'll comfort each other. We're also both mature enough to realize that you don't always get the fairy-tale ending in life.

Watching Joan Biaz sing on "The Last Waltz". It's one of my Thanksgiving traditions. I also like to listen to "Alice's Restaurant"...other than that, it's turkey, stuffing, mash potatoes and the rest of the usual food stuff. Will probably end up going to see the Twilight movie tonight. I started the 4th book last night. It hasn't received the best reviews, so I hope it doens't ruin the series for me....I also hope the movie does the first book justice.

Just remembering last Thanksgiving...I drove up from Panama City Beach to be with Patty and her mom and son....Patty burned her arm with gravy...not fun. Later (or possibly the next day) she broke out in hives...we think it may have been the pet carpet cleaner stuff...we had moved furniture around in her bedroom and she was crawling on the floor quite a bit as we did...anyway, she was miserable for a couple of days, but got better.

Was the Macy's parade always so lame? I remember loving it as a kid.

Rise from the dead

So it's been years...and well let's see what has changed...

I got out of the Air Force...maybe you already knew that. Moved to Detroit, but couldn't find a job. Got a call from Wynne and Brian down in Florida saying that they had a job for me... I thought about for a few weeks, and then decided I had to take it. At the time I was very concentrated on getting Aidan back with me. The job turned out to be very good. I lived in Panama City Beach form almost 3 years (I'll probably use another blog to fill you in on that). Then I moved here to O'Fallon, IL (near St Louis for anyone not willing to pull it up on Gooogle maps). I got a job that was satisfactory, but not anything to rave about. After the contract switched to a new company I did stay on, and I work with some very good people, who help make showing up every day worth it. I'll also use another post to try and cover everything that's happened since moving up here...like moving into one place, then moving into my own place...

So why am I back? I need a place to start putting my thoughts together again. I'm at a very confusing point in my life. I happened to stumble across my old blog and started reading it... I got nostalgic for how I used to keep things updated pretty regularly. I want to get back to that. I want to be able to look back years from now and have some sort of record of how my life went... This time around I would like to do it without many of the restrictions I use to put on myself... I would blog often, and just make comments on the day, and life with Aidan etc, but I would often edit myself based on who I knew would be reading...I don't want to do that any more. I've had good and bad things happen in my life. I've hurt others and been hurt. I've made others happy, and some have done that for me...so now as I begin my trial experiment of blogging again I will not hold back.

I'm at a point where I'm feeling pressure to know what it is I really want in life, and to set myself on the path that will most likely help me to get it. I'm probably the only one who that will be interesting to, but who cares? I'm not advertising that this blog even exist any more. I'm just going to use it as my journal and keep living my life. I'll also put in the light, weird, neurotic thoughts that cross my mind like I used to...just because I can still make myself laugh, and hope that I always will...

OK, it's almost 11. I'm sleeping at Patty's tonight. I wish she knew how much I just enjoy having her next to me...

Gotta go kids

Cheers!

Just Checking

So it seems myspace doesn't have very good archive features...so I'm thinking about coming back to the blogger site...all in favor say I.

Going Private

I've been re-reading my post from the last year or so. They provide a quick glimpse into what I was doing, but lack any emotion, and fail to capture the scope of my thoughts on many levels. The reason for this I feel is that I was posting for an audience (a small one). I hold things back to avoid confusion, anger, whatever. I was trying to please everyone, and the result is that I don't really have anything to go back and see what kind of person I really was/am. So, I'm going to make sure I capture everything I have hear and save it off to disk, then I'm going to get rid of this site and just do a private journal on my laptop. I don't think a public forum is the right place for the type of writing I want to do. Farewell and you can always keep in touch via email.

Cheers!
Tim












...Oh, and I'm moving back to Michigan this summer...

Tired of the fake postings

I'm changing the ability to post to members only. I'll add the people who post regularly as members to my site when I get home tonight.

Cheers
Tim